I have noticed that no-one has posted lately so with things fairly slow here today I thought I would. I took my Family out this week so my Grand Children could talk to Santa. Waiting with them in line I heard countless Children reciting what they want for Christmas. It made me think that there is a difference between wanting something for Christmas and Christmas Wishes, at least to me. Asking for a gift is just that, a direct request; where as a Christmas Wish, at least in my opinion is something you ask for someone else. A wish that goes a little higher and is heard by whomever you believe is at the top of your personal Prayer chain. I personally believe that wishes and Prayers are taken even more seriously during the Holidays.
I went home and thought about my Christmas list. After reviewing it a few times I went on to thinking about my Wish list. Being in a position of taking care of those in their final days makes this list more important. I sat down and wrote my Christmas Wish list down on paper in the form of Christmas letters to each of those I look out for. Due to HIPPA laws I can not disclose most of them. But one of those I surely can. I hope this helps all of those out there today in tremendous pain due to loss of a Friend or a Loved one.
I know it is pretty funny writing this to you since 5 minutes ago I was trying to get you to talk. Here it is Christmas time and time for me to write down my Christmas wishes. I am sure you know what my wish is for you but I still feel compelled to write it down. My wish for you comes in the form of a letter. A letter inspired by another letter that sparked an editorial that was released in the New York Sun on September 21,1897. One Hundred and Seventeen years ago. The story behind that letter was that 8 year old Virginia O’Hanion asked Her Father if Santa Claus really existed. Her Father, Philip O’Hanion, a Coroner’s Assistant in Manhattan replied that She should write a letter to the New York Sun; reciting that ” if you see it in the sun then it is true.” Of course, Virginia’s letter was replied to in an editorial that would echo in the hearts of many, even still today with the words, ” yes Virginia, there is a Santa Claus.”
The long winded back story to this letter is to echo in my own words to you. “Yes Mike, God is still here.”
I know that lately it has been very hard for you to keep your faith. Many things recently have made it easy for you to believe otherwise, that you are alone in this. The phones very rarely ring now and most of the time you are left to your battle alone. But I wanted to reply to something you had asked. ” Why has God left?” I want you to look at something for a moment. Many times, People think they are left by God. Many of those are People I deal with daily, but this is true for many as well as many not fighting terminal battles. It is like that if God Him/Her Self doesn’t appear then He/She isn’t there. My belief is that God does exist in the help that He provides. When you wake, screaming in pain and begging for some assistance God is present. He has allowed some of us to become educated in how to administer the relief that will help you. He then has sent us to your side, just for that purpose. When your Wife or Daughter comes to your side to sit with you, comfort you and remind you that you are not alone; it is God that put them there in that position to begin with. I know it is hard to accept and even at times believe. But I have been in many of these rooms over the years and I can tell you that God is present in your room and in my heart I know he will be until it is no longer necessary. When you are in the throws of the worst of it, a complete feeling of calmness fills the air. Even with all that is happening in those moments inside of you there on the bed, there is a warmth throughout the room. That in my belief is God making his presence known. There is noway to know why things happen and why some of those drag on. We like to make ourselves feel better about ourselves by saying that God gives us nothing we can not handle. As much as I believe in that it is also hard to rectify why some of those things have to happen at all. What good do they serve? I myself have seen many journeys that fall into this category. But I have also come to believe that there are times when pain and torment have to be endured to cross to the other side. Our illnesses and injuries sometimes just demand it. It is that simple. It is not the concept of being left behind. It is the process that is intended to eventually leave us in peace for Eternity, there on the other side. Sometimes these processes are momentary and sometimes much longer. But I can assure you based on things I have seen and felt, God is there.
God is there in the form of those around you , he is there in the form of the solitary light, there in the middle of the night. He is there in the darkness that surrounds your body and in your mind. Sometimes in the middle of those worst incidents I have seen you suddenly stop from screaming and break out in laughter. That is God, giving you a moment within those hardest of times. I have seen the smile on your face, even through the pain when a Loved one enters the room. That is also God. There have been times I have witnessed you, laying there in pain, screaming and begging for this to end. Suddenly you would be in peace, calmly humming under your voice and reciting over and over, ” Thank You.” These are the times that God has sent your most precious Angel to comfort you.
As we draw closer to Christmas I know that the present you request the most is peace and closure. To not feel alone. My Christmas wish for you is this letter to hopefully help to remind you and maybe even answer a few questions that you are not alone. Not at all.
Yes Mike, God is still here. He is right there with you every minute of every day.